Ekstatische Lyriken Pinnwand

Hmm... That's not quite as bad as I thought.

written by Pj on Tuesday April 23rd, 2013 -- 10:41 p.m.
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I've been afraid to re-read this post, imagining it to be some awful shit I posted while drunk.  It's hardly my best writing and kind of boring, but it could be worse.

Anyway, I decided the random things my brain thinks about are not worthy of blog posts.  In particular, writing about them seems like an idea that would only encourage the problem. 

As for avoiding caffeine, alcohol, and bullshit supplements and vitamins, that seems to be wonderful.  After the caffeine wore off, I started out sleeping 16 hours a day, but am now down to about 11 hours a day. 

I think I really need to concentrate on trying to sleep as many hours a day as possible.  Usually, when my sleep schedule gets to the point where I'm waking up at about 3 am, I start to feel better, then I feel worse again two weeks later when my sleep schedule has progressed to the point that I'm waking up at noon.  Before I had suspected this was because daylight made me more awake, but if that were the case, then why could I never keep that schedule despite doing my best to wake up at the same time in the morning and go to bed at a reasonable time?

I suspect the actual reason is that when I wake up at 3 am, if I'm even slightly tired at all, I just go back to sleep, because it's still dark outside.  So I get plenty of sleep.

So I've been trying to continue to do that, sleeping as late as I possibly can every day, even as my wake-up time progresses towards noon.  It seems to be working well.  I usually only wake up one time during the night that I remember to go to the bathroom. 

I've tried doing this before, keeping a sleep schedule that progresses around the clock, but it isn't all that easy.  I keep making decisions about what to do based on what I see on the clock.  Not only do I keep getting the feeling I should get out of bed if I happen to wake up and see that it is noon, but also, like now, I look up and see that it's 10:30 pm, and so I think I should have gone to bed an hour ago, but really I shouldn't go to bed for several more hours.  It also affects what I decide to do, since I'll look at the clock and see that it's late, and so decide not to start anything that will take a few hours to do, even though I have a few hours before I'll go to sleep. 

I thought about building a special clock that runs at a different speed, but after my experiment with "moon time" two years ago ended in a complete disaster, I don't think there's much point.  I need to sleep and wake up when I want to, not on any schedule.  Perhaps the best I could do would be to get rid of clocks completely.

I was also thinking of covering my windows with foil again, to prevent the sunlight from convincing me to wake up.  I think last time I tried that I only kept it that way for a few weeks before I was tired of never seeing sunlight.  Perhaps it would work if I were to make myself get out more.  It is becoming summer, so I could go bicycling a lot.

I already covered the front window of the house, out of necessity, so that I could see my computer monitor in the evening, and also because all of the sunlight heats up the front room so much that the air conditioner isn't able to keep it cool (and I don't want to pay for that much cooling either).  Interestingly, I was 25% complete before I even thought about whether or not I wanted to do it. 

That's becoming a common theme of when I do things and when I don't do things.  I'm either lying around thinking about whether or not I want to do something, or I just find myself doing it without any thought at all.

I started eating 700 calorie meals yesterday, after realizing that I was probably not going to lose any weight without counting calories.  I wonder if that wasn't actually the magic of the Stouffer's meals I was eating when I originally lost weight.  They were all pre-measured into bags, and so I knew to eat only half a bag for a meal.

So I started yesterday, and at first felt a bit jittery from lack of eating, but got over it, and now I'm slightly convinced that eating less actually gives you more energy, in as much as one can draw a conclusion from two days of vague improvement.

Well, whatever.  Time to make another post with images I rendered in Blender.


Calories and Fiber - crunge - 5/14/13
I'll try that... - Pj - 5/15/13
Manageable stuff - crunge - 5/15/13
Lustig's Book - Pj - 5/28/13
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